I'm having such a hard time dealing with this. How can I bring myself to forgive someone who brought me so much pain, when there is nothing to forgive? There were no sins involved. But why does it feel so utterly wrong to me when it is so utterly blameless?

It still feels like a huge knife in the back, even though I was probably the one who walked straight into it. How could I have been such a fool to fall for someone so out of my reach? How could I have been such a fool to think that someone like him could fall for someone like me? He has time and time again spoke of his ideal partner and you have never once fell into that category. Why do you mistake his act of friendship for something more? Belle why are you ridiculously incapable of rational thoughts?

If I didn't walk blindly into this then I probably would've been able to give my full blessings, but right now all I feel is pain, pain from the hopes I pinned up so high, and so much hurt from a non-betrayal.