It is well.: March'd On

28th January 2020
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The last time I saw yeye.

4th March 2020

Went to cycle with Pastor after work! It was fantastic workout. I couldn't catch up with him LOL.

5th March 2020

Woke up to these. Woke up absolutely in shock and I think I procrastinated packing for at least an hour because I didn't know what to pack and I couldn't process my thoughts.

Eventually managed to throw in white and black tshirts and hailed a grab to Woodlands Train Checkpoint. Rushed into JB and entered the house.

His body was the first thing I saw because his room was facing the main gate, and he was still in his bed facing the window, and I could see him immediately.

Saw the cousins and my aunt, we sat down and talked for a bit before QX accompanied me to see his body. I was nervous because I didn't know how I'd react.

He was blue by then, we didn't know what time he passed but it has to have been a couple of hours, because when popo went to check in on him in the early A.M he was already cold.

I gingerly touched his hand expecting it to be hard and ice cold but it was normal. It felt exactly like how I remembered it, except that it was room temperature.

By then tears were streaming down my face, but it's strange because I was genuinely happy that he's in the place we all desire to be the most, but at the same time it was hard looking at his empty body.

Went to get some food for the family from Qiang Ji. My first time being driven by him hahaha.

Photo arrived! Was super proud of this photo cause I took it at SL's wedding. SY was supposed to take a photo with them and I cracked a joke to make him laugh and he gave me this absolute boss of a smile. Immortalised in my memory forever this drama boi.

If I didn't remember wrongly, this arrived at church before the coffin did.

Went back to the house to get my clothes and some PJs because we made an impromptu decision to book an Airbnb to stay at. Then the cousins detoured for some ice cream. Cheap magnums? Yes please!

Coffin's here! Awkward smiles. Honestly right, I'd prefer if the coffin wasn't white. I feel like he's more of a brown wooden coffin kind of guy. Guys if I die I also don't want white coffin, unless it's because it's cheap then ok la, HAHA.

It was our first time being with the funeral process from start to finish. Kind of an interesting experience. Aaron and I mused that we experienced many firsts with yeye, especially when we look back to our adventure of a childhood.

First team to 守夜. Uncle just wanted us to stay for a couple of hours more in case there are late guests, then go to bed. But I think the both of us couldn't really sleep. We just sat at the 帛金 table and did our own things, before we got too cold and went to the church office. We watched the first episode of CLOY together but we weren't really in the mood either. We made a feeble excuse of going out to check on the coffin, but I think we just didn't want to be far away.

Had a really good reminiscing session with him. We were the two cousins who spent the most time with yeye and there were countless of stories to remember.

We tried finish watching CLOY around 4am, but we crashed at 4.30AM and my uncle woke us up at 6AM to change shift.

6th March 2020

Fully decked in UQ for my funeral attire wahahaha.

Yong Tau Foo for lunch before we went back to church. Was a bit moody because I was really tired.

From yeye's church in Singapore. Can't remember which one, but I happened to meet one of them over the christmas rally in 2018, and she recognised me from yeye's fb profile photo hahahaha.

Using the funeral handbook he made, for his funeral.

So touched to see so many people turning up. Saw many old faces as well.

Our respective churches came down as well, thanks RBPC, much love :')

7th March 2020

I was exhausted. I was so exhausted because I couldn't sleep well the past few nights. The casket smelled weird, like we could smell the fumes, or perhaps it was the make-up. I thought the make-up was terribly done, or maybe yeye just doesn't look good dead. It really didn't look like him.

He always told me that he was shy to have people viewing his dead body cause he thinks he'll look ugly. 真的不是很好看咧爷爷，哈哈哈哈哈 sorry.

Family photo. Did any of us inherit his smile? Hahahaha.

Encoffining / 舍不得

We went for the cremation after that. I saw bones for the first time. I was so fascinated. I wanted to call 爷爷 and laugh and say "Eeeee 爷爷，我动到你的骨头，eeeee 很恶心咧！" and wait in delight for his uproarious laugh. But then I remembered he wasn't there. Took some getting used to man.

8th March 2020

A before/after shot. Hmm. I didn't like it very much. We had service with the church to thank them for their help with the funeral. Probably the last time we attend service in yeye's church together as a family.

9th March 2020

Staying with my beloved grandmother. Kampong life.

10th March 2020

“老公，你现在只剩一堆骨头。往事只能回味，哎。”

11th March 2020

Started to have a habit of bible and book reading with 婆婆 in the morning. It was a fantastic time of the day.

13th March 2020

Moving out yeye's bed and other furnitures.

14th March 2020

16th March 2020
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“我死后，你要来这边散步，纪念我。” Why you make me promise to go back to JB you ah!

17th March 2020

Rushed back after receiving news of Malaysia's MCO. Glenn willingly offered to drive down and pick us up from JB, so touched. We sat through almost 4 hours of jam at the customs but compared to some 6-9 hours I think we got off the hook. Was very thankful and touched by his gesture.

My mother only cooked for her mother so I came out to meet SY for dinner. Satisfied my matcha latte craving as well! Oh no I'm craving for it now as we speak.

18th March 2020

Brought her out to enjoy the wind at the Garden Hill opposite my place. Got in a bad mood because I received a very rude text. Sent 婆婆 home and then I went to Bedok Mall to fit lens for 爷爷's glasses. Vintage ma.

20th March 2020

Felt so sad that she had to sleep here, but she couldn't fall asleep in my room because I stay right next to the bus interchange and it was way too noisy for her. Aiya her smile makes me so happy!

21st March 2020

We sang hymns together while I play on the guitar. I was a bit sad because I couldn't go to church because of my visit to Malaysia, but singing hymns with my grandmother was SO beautiful. Thankful.

22nd March 2020

We worshipped online before going over to my cousin's house. Had a great catch up with the family, and we watched old videos of ourselves. I really enjoyed that day.

28th March 2020